God does still speak

God makes me giggle at times. He never ceases to amaze me. Someone wrote a question of Facebook yesterday, asking why God doesn't still speak wth an audible voice. I didn't comment because I didn't have an answer. It did get me thinking though. Does God still speak with an audible voice? If He spoke to me in that manner, I might be afraid to tell anyone for fear they would think me crazy. There are so many examples in the Bible of God speaking to people, and yet we don't hear of any in our society today.

But I know God still speaks. In fact, he spoke to me this morning. Think I'm crazy? Well, I've been very anxious the past week, as we wait to see if SuperD will get the job he interviewed for almost 2 weeks ago. We know they are considering him because they called one of his references to check up on him. I've been praying a lot about this job. He would be working for the same school system who employs me. It would be close to home. It would provide insurance immediately, which is important for a diabetic. It doesn't pay what he is worth, but he would work normal hours and be able to spend more time with the family. It's what he wants. It's what I want. But is it God's will?

I've been honest with God. I've asked Him to give this job to SuperD. I know the answer might be "no", but I've asked God to please let it be a "yes". He knows the desires of my heart. He knows how I've been fighting worry about the state of our checking account. He has been keeping me calm every time the worries try to resurface. I know He will continue to take care of us. He hasn't given me the answer I desire, but He did answer me this morning.

I awoke from a dream. I won't go into details, but it reflected the worries I have been keeping at bay. I talked with God about it and gave those worries back to Him. Again. Then, as I checked my email, He sent me a Bible verse. KLOVE sends me a verse every day. Most days I read over it, reflect a little, and go on with my day. But today, it was meant for me. It's one of my favorites. Proverbs 18:10 says, "The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe." It was a reminder to me to keep doing what I'm doing, and God will continue to keep us safe. I'm certainly not righteous, but as I continue to give my anxiety over to God, I know he honors my faithfulness.

Well, I guess God wasn't through talking to me because when I was checking Facebook, He gave me another verse. Psalm 9:9-10 says, "The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know Your name will trust in You, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek You." I smiled and said, "Okay. Okay, God. I get it."

If my dreams are any indication, I hadn't truly given Him my trust. I've been trying. It's been hard. He's taught me this same lesson over and over, and He has never failed me. He has walked with me and even carried me when I was too tired to go on. This is not too big for Him. This is nothing for Him. We are everything to Him, and I will continue to trust and praise Him. He will not forsake me. He will keep me safe. 

So, God does speak. It wasn't with an audible voice, and you still may think I'm crazy. But I know my Savior's voice. If you listen, you will hear Him, too.